Get back on the [right] horse
Ok, I bought dirt this Sunday and have nursed my bruises and aches ever since. It is clear – almost 40-year-old joints are much less lubricated and flexible than someone half my age. And riding without the right equipment is not smart.
But does the same go for the joints of my mind and soul?
And who says I want to get back on the same horse?
I do now have more respect for my horse and the equipment!
I am unsettled. The whole feeling of being intensely vulnerable triggered something. So much so that I have burst into tears twice this week … so unlike me – I am a lapsed accountant and predominately left brain female after all …
What is the meaning of these random events that stop my in my tracks?
Why do I get emotional and all teary eyed about SA history?
Why is the in-your-face-male-and-material values of my workspace irritating me more than usual?
Where else in life am I riding “horses” without the right equipment?
A friend did a tarot reading for me last night and my astrology outlook for the next two years. Now before you go off … this is NOT what you read in the newspaper. More a sense of the feeling or the energy the year ahead will hold. And no I did not run to him after the above!
Interestingly it mirrored exactly back to me the above questions and the balancing act between male and female consciousness I find within myself and the world. We want to go “either this or that” and not “this and that”. When in fact the latter is what is so needed.
This is exactly what Kahane says in his book Power and Love. That both ar needed for social change. He quotes Martin Luther King who said: “Power properly understood is nothing but the ability to achieve purpose. It is the strength required to bring about social, political and economic change. What is needed is a realization that power without love is reckless and abusive, and love without power is sentimental and anemic.
Power at its best is love implementing the demands of justice, and justice at its best is power correcting everything that stands against love.”
Lesson for me – choose the right horse to ride (my true purpose) in life PLUS do it in a balanced way. Common sense, isn’t it? I guess my mind and soul are much more flexible than my body at this stage.
Now where is that dose of courage …
Loving the different parts, giving each a space. 
